Girls suck

Girls suck: "I don't quite know what it is I feel anymore. Have you ever had a week where your whole world seems to have turned upsidedown?"

Yes indeed. I feel that way a lot. I am not sure though. For some reason it's not just a week for me though. It's like all the time. I am fine one minute and then the next I get so angry or mad or sad. It's weird. And I over analyze things so much lately I think. I will be thinking about something and I will just think about it too much and then I will be lost. And I wont know what to think anymore. Like I thought about it so much that I'm just completely clueless as to what I think or want. And often I will dream about something so much but then I never think about what I would do if that dream really came true. Which it wouldn't, but see if I would think about what I would do with it if it did come true and realize I probably wouldn't or couldn't do anything with it I will not waste my time wanting it and being so disappointed when I don't get it. And I get so lost sometimes and just daze and fade away from everyone thinking about nothing at all really. Or something that has nothing to do with what is around me. I feel confused and lost all the time lately. My world is always upsidedown and backwards it seems. The only time I can really escape my thoughts is when I am asleep. And sometimes when I am with my friends having a good time but even then I can't really. It sucks. Because how can you improve something when you don't know what is bringing you down really.

I think I will stop talking about that now. I spent the night at Kim's last night. She took Kirst home for me and then I just stayed at her house. Mary, Kirstie and I went to that show at Florida Southern. It was cool.

Tomorrow is school. Ick. I don't want to go. But I have to. Hmmmm. I guess I will be going now. Goodbye.

-Brittany

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