Brittany

Well I haven't really really written an entry in a very long time it seems. I just haven't been in the mood to sit here and type a bunch about crap. I have been in weird moods lately. I don't know. And when I did take the time to write I either would get kicked offline and it would get deleted or it wouldn't let me update for some odd reason. Possibly because AOL and Diaryland fucking suck lately.

I am supposed to be calling Miss McCurdy on the tele in 4 minutes. I might be a little late doing that though. She will understand I'm sure though.

Hmmm. What to talk about, what to talk about.

I had a fun weekend I think. Friday Mary, Kirstie and I went to the mall and didn't see Laura like we were supposed to but saw Megan up there. Then after the mall Megan drove Mary and Kirst and I back to my house and we called Carrie up because my two best friends are in love with his bud he was hanging with. (Jonathan Montgomery) Haha, and he ended up coming over after he got done hanging with them and hung out with us for a bit. It was fun times I guess. He's a neat guy.

Ummm Saturday we just hung out at my house some and then they left and got ready at Mary's house and Jen came and got me and we had to go to the office for a sec and then she let me drive. Hehe. From south side to Mary's house. It was neato. And so we got them and then went to the As You Wish show in St. Pete. I had a fun time. We are going to go to their Fla. Southern show with Death After Texas on Thursday night. I hope that's fun also.

Saturday night Kirst stayed the night with me and then Sunday we got up and went to the beach. I think it was Anna Maria Island. It was cool. We didn't go in the water. We just layed out. I think we layed a little too long on our backs cause our front side is real burnt but our backs aren't. Haha, and I am dumb and put a shirt over my eyes to block the sun and didn't put it over my whole face...so yea, now only the bottom half of my face is red. It's quite funny looking.

We only stayed at the beach for a couple hours and then left because it got cloudy. And on our way home we took Kirstie home. That was my weekend. Grand huh?

Devin is making me a template. Neato. It's going to be great. She is using this cool pic I found. It's of The Ataris. It has them and they are standing under a doorway and then it says above them I heart Mary + Brian. And above Brian it says Wilson. Which is Brian's last name. So that's major weird cause The Ataris is like my fav band and Mary and Brian are like two of my fav people. And Devin is going to make it really cool. I can't wait to see it.

Speaking of the Ataris and Brian...

And Mary that I was supposed to call more than 10 minutes ago :-/

But yes, The Ataris. I got their new CD Tuesday. I am happy that they are making it so big and stuff. But I was kind of disappointed about their new CD and stuff. I dunno. I used to be able to relate to their stuff really well. I think that's why I liked it so much. They were all about never wanting to grow up and having awesome nights and stuff. And about falling for someone and then having them break your heart because they don't feel the same way and saying you hate them but really you love them and would do anything for them type thing. And having big crushes and stuff. Haha. But now they are more about they grew up and they are looking at good memories and they are talking about family a bunch and how they are in love. And I'm just not that into it that's all. But I still like their old stuff.

And speaking of Brian. That boy. Ummm. Well I am making him a bracelet and he is going to wear it. And it will be a beautiful bracelet :-) He talked to me in a different language tonight as he ate girl scout cookies. It was wonderful. Hehe. But Brian. I don't know really. I think he is more than awesome really. And he makes me very happy most of the time. It's weird. I think he is a super rad guy. And I think I'm kinda into him :-/ But I dunno cause I don't believe he thinks of me in that way at all. And I get confused and angry imside with him sometimes when he doesn't talk to me and stuff. But really he doesn't do anything. It's not that he doesn't want to talk with me I don't think...it's that he is busy or something. But I get mad sometimes. I don't know. I get mad at him for what he doesn't do not what he does. And I expect too much of him I guess. Like to always want to talk with me and to be super happy to talk to me all the time like I always am about him. But really I should be happy that he talks to me even a little. And that doesn't ignore me like Mark and stuff. I just get sad and mad over dumb stuff and I'm weird though. But I think he is a great guy and I would be sad if he wasn't my buddy so I don't really want to mention that I like him like this to him. It's just before when I liked Levi or Mark it was like I was all in love with them but I barely knew them. Yea, maybe I went to school with them and stuff for years and thought they were good looking and stuff but I never really knew much about them. And everything they did was perfect and they had no flaws and I thought they were sooo wonderful. But I barely knew them. And I guess I don't know a whole bunch about Brian but I know him a lot more than I did them. And yes, I think he is grand but it's different from how I thought of Levi and Mark. It's like he does things I don't find perfect and I don't overlook everything and see only how grand he is and say how much I love him and know like nothing about him and stuff. I don't know. It's kinda hard to explain. I just like him a bunch both as a friend and a little more. But I don't want to because I truly don't think he feels that way about me. And I am too scared to ask him or anything like that and I don't think I want to tell him really. I like him being my bud and I think he would be more distant if he found out that I thought this of him or something. You know? Plus even if he thought anything of me that way I'm thinking the fact that I liked Mark or maybe that I did that with Joey would make him scratch that. But I don't know. Geez, it seems like I like everyone. Ha, cause there was the Joey thing and I liked Mark and Levi and now I say I think I like Brian. And they are all somewhat related and are good buds. So it must seem like I like everyone. But really those are like the only guys besides Louis I have been into ever practically. Weird. Maybe I need to move away from their little circle. I might be better off. Because none of them ever went for me at all. I sense a sort of trend...

Whew, that was a lot of stuff. Mary IMed me just now. I hope she isn't mad I didn't call. She probably isn't.

Mary and Kirstie told me today they think I am bipolar. Spelling? Yes, and that is like when you are happy and then sad and stuff like that I guess. That's weird and sad if I am. Mary thinks I am depressed and I need help. That's also sad. My friends think I am psycho. Ha, not really. But still. Kirst said her and Kacie both think it and Mary thinks it too. And they think me sleeping so much has a lot to do with it. I wonder how long they have thought this.

I don't know. I'm not depressed. I just get sad sometimes. A lot of the time I guess. But most of the time it's over stupid things that aren't important. And the sleeping thing...I just like to sleep a lot. I don't know why. It's peaceful and feels good. But doesn't everyone like to sleep? I hope I really don't need help. I have Mary and Kirst. That's enough right? They make me happy. Sometimes I get annoyed by them but barely ever. They are grand friends. That's all I need. And I don't think I'm bipolar. That's like Jesus stuff. I don't think I'm a lot like him.

But I guess I will go now because I need to do some homework and talk to my buddy Mary. Goodbye.

-Brittany

Oh! I forgot. I did this thing for Kacie. Everyone should do it for me too. And leave it in my guestbook or something like that. It will be fun. Do it. Please. Hehe. I thought it was neato...

i ____ brittany

brittany is ____

if i were alone in a room with brittany, i would _______

i think brittany should _____

brittany needs ______

i want to ____________ brittany

someday brittany will ________

brittany reminds me of _______

without brittany _______

memories of brittany are ________

brittany can be __________

__________ is how I describe meeting brittany

worst thing about brittany is _________

best thing about brittany is _________

i am ________ with brittany

to describe brittany in one word, it would be ________

...Hehe go for it kids. -Britt

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